Its been a long time

Ok Spencer this is for you. I have not been on here for sometime, first I was sick, then just one thing after another happend that I did not make time to write.
For your info me and Jeff are on the outs, just a long story that I would not like to bring up at this point and time because it will make me cry again.
I did have good news when I went to the Doctor, I lost 50 lbs. which I must say that Im happy about. Even though the doctor was being and ass(not my regular doc.) said that I was fat(HELLO) that I need to loose more weight. I wish that they would tell me something I do not know.
Im hoping that I have a good Thanksgiving.

Closer

Time seems to be flying by, as I'm flying to England. I can't wait to see Jeff. I had a good cry last night when I was in bed alone. It just does not feel right to be without him next to me. But I just got off the phone with him and that made me smile. My poor baby has a cold, and was in bed drinking tea and thinking of me. That's love.
P.S. congratulation Spencer and Trisha on the engagement. I wish you all the happiness that Jeff and I have.

Just tinker Bell

Oh how my poor feet hurt, but its a good kinda hurt. I have been doing some Two Step country dancing and that is fun. Im trying to keep myself busy until I leave to England and to drop some pounds. So far I can dance..... pounds being lost is not working. Not that Jeff has said anything about me being big, I want to just feel a little lighter.

Ducks!

Its Duck Race weekend in the big city of Deming, and let me say I am tired of them. I just hope this weekend goes by quick.

Time for a BBQ

UMMMMMM yeah baby.... Its bbq time. I can almost taste those ribs. The nice potato salad, Fresh home made bread. Nice cold Pepsi that is begging to be the one to wash everything down.
Now for the reason for this bbq. My cousin is blowing into town for 3 days. She arrives one day, has a bbq for her the next day then she flies out again. I love my cousin a lot, she is almost like a younger sister. And getting to be with her and enjoy this feast will be a happy day. I can't wait till she gets here, and spend some time with her. That and the fact that her Mom is the one throwing this bbq and my Aunt is a kick ass cook. I hope it does not rain that day. And for me to say I hope it does not rain mean a lot to me.

Time to morn

This last Wednesday was a sad day for me, I went to a friends funeral. It was one of trying to understand why one person takes the life of another. I have to say I knew this guy, with a warm smile and one to ask how was my Mom and family were doing. I can't say that I talked to him talked to him kind of way,but still a person that was a friend. The day of his funeral was a rainy day with clouds letting loose during the service as tears ran down everyone's face. Looking at his family and hearing them stiffly a cry and wipe a tear was hard. But knowing they caught his killer and justice will be given for this crime.

Still more rain in our future

So im not drowning right now, but hey im not complaining. Not like im in Hatch that got 4 feet of rain in one day. Now that is what I call a flooding.

Im happy that Im off for the next two days but upset that I will be saying my goodbyes to Jeff. I might take another day off to get over not having him home with me, Just walk around in my pj's mopping around, holding on to his picture. Im looking foward on seeing him in a few weeks. That is about all that has been going on in my day.